I am thankful for...

What am I thankful for?

I am thankful for everything around me. I am thankful that I wake up in the morning, although in pain lately. I am thankful that I am able to enjoy the love of my child. I am thankful that I have means to get me to work safely so that I am thankful for the job that I have. I can put food on my table and a clothes on my back. We see where that all leads to.

Ok, that is all the usual mushy stuff that everyone can post. There are a few things that I am truely thankful for and that is my life in general. I have the best friends in the world and I have my childs love. Those are what makes the world go around. The list I have in my mind is endless. There is no way for me to express everything individually. I love my friends and my family. You are all on my list.

In the past few weeks, my life has taken some wide curves and hit a few trees along the way. Good thing that those trees are strong and sturdy because I have hit them quite hard. Recent events have put me under the weather a bit but I am still able to hold my head up high. I owe that all to those who read this.

Some days my heart is heavy and my body hurts but I get through knowing that the sun will rise again in the morning and a new day begins. Some of those days suck and some of those days are bright and cheerful. But thats what they are. They are days to get through.

I havent been around alot lately. Its either because Im too damn tired or that Ive been extremely busy. I have had alot of family issues going on all at once but at the same time, Ive been working on some projects to get me through the holidays. Some jewelry orders need to be finished but at the same time Im dealing with one crisis after another with friends and family.

This past week, there has been a major project going on in my home. Rooms are getting cleaned out and organized. Boxes moved to a storage unit. I plan to move out of this crappy apartment sometime soon. I just dont want to make all those tripsup and down the stairs a million times in one day.

During this adventure, I have found things that I havent seen in many years. Some memories I want to keep and some I would rather forget. I have found a few boxes from a previous move that contained items just shoved in when doing a last minute sweep around the old place. Baby bottles and old bills. Keys to something that I cant remember. Cards and notes that I dont remember what they were for. Old silverware and thumbtacks. It was hysterical to go through this stuff. Im sure my trash man will be happy with me this week.

Dealing with the potential loss of a "family" member has had me down. The decisions have been made but I havent received the call yet. I wont be calling my mom for a couple of days so that I can allow them to concentrate on what they need to do there. Shes been here for a few days but I havent seen her yet. Its sad and I am sad for them to have to go through this.

Also today, a friend suffered a deep blow to her family and my thoughts and prayers go out to her. Its not easy to lose someone. But losing someone around the holidays is even tougher. Its a rememberance that we could all do without. But the bond of friendships is what holds us upright. I am thankful for that.

I, however, wont be thankful for the pounds I will be gaining from all that food on Thursday. I recently told someone not to eat too much and to save room for leftovers. I really need to practice what I preach. I will be doing alot of the cooking tonight so that there isnt alot to do on Thursday morning. I have no idea who is coming to my house to eat. I invited my father but he never gave me a direct answer. I invited my mother but she said that she doubted they will come because of what is happening with Jake. I just dont want the two of them showing up at the same time. That I wouldnt be thankful for.

I dont mind if anyone wants to come over to eat. The more the merrier. Just be prepared to help me clean up after. Thats one thing I am not thankful for. No automatic dishwasher. But on the mushier note, Im thankful that I am able to do them. But you know I hate the mushy stuff.